At Least At The End of the Day I Can Run a Cop Through With a Dildo

Im writing this post just as a general statement to say that shit happens.

I could write for paragraphs and paragraphs about this, but to be honest, nothing I could ever write would mean as much as "Shit Happens" just did.

Thats the problem with long writing, when a message is spread throughout a large block of text, one of two things happen:

1) The message is lost under a useless mass of examples and rewordings of the origional point

2) The message is overstated and forced on the reader like a giant dick of opinion into the mouthes of the less than willing audience.

But yeah, thats the post pretty much, not really sure how else to say it but:
Sure, life has its ups and downs, or more or less downs and 'not so downs'. You can bitch, complain, blame others, blame yourself, get overly depressed or take it out physically. But to make all of it seem less iportant or prominent, do something you love, have always loved, and are proud to love. For me thats Video games, always has been, always will be.
So yes, (as said in the title that to be honest, suggested a funnier post) I'm going to try tolive through life as fast as possibe, taking all the blows on the chin. At least at the end of the day I can run through a cop with a dildo on my xbox.

System Of A Down - 1998

"As the century nears its formidable end, our global experience of universal proportions, predicted by many greats, will arrive at our solar system, to our System Of A Down. Authoritarian Oppression, family abuse, depression caused by conformity, and economic devastation will be neutralised by technological terrorism in times of complete chaos. Control will never again be gained for toleration will become extinct. A husband quarreling with his wife will not think twice or regret his spent bullet. Hungry children will not spare the grocer. Remorse in all forms will be removed from human thoughts and actions. Freedom will only be available through revolution or death. This system of a down is unavoidable as life on this planet becomes unnecessary.о The hand has five fingers, capable and powerful, with the ability to destroy as well as create. We have the power to stop and reverse the tides of time by making our awareness of abuse known to the powers of industry and their uncouth political arms. Only by raising this awareness and promoting personal peace within today's self-defeatist society, can we allow the planet a chance to avoid self-destruction! Open your eyes, open your mouths, close your hands and make a fist." - Daron Malakian - 1998

A Post a Month or so Keeps the Doctor... Uncomfortable?

Heres a post you can stick in your pipe and smoke it.
A list, of everything on my mind, no order, no sense... just a list...

This is something I've been thinking about alot recently:
Which is better? A painful optimism or a crushing doubt or realisation?

Whats the point of playing online when often it brings mere frustation and self depreciation.
Even when winning...

Why do some school subjects attempt to judge opinions.

Why do some people feel that an addequite response in an argument is "Its just my opinion", we all know that. The whole idea of an arguement is that its a difference of opinion.

Why do I enjoy facebook when all it is is a long list of things people have done recently?

Who's job is it in a film to create the sound track?

Was it a lazy person who came up with the idea of a "a good nights sleep" before a important event?

Why arent suits worn more by the youth?

Why do people find the need to say a situation is awkward even when they know its just going to make it even more awkward?

Am I spelling awkward correctly?

Am I spellin colloquialism correctly?

Why does my camera make the world ugly?

Why am I writing this list?

Why am I writing this blog?

Why is the keyboard shaped the way it is? Just so we could call it Qwerty?

Why dont I do this more often?

Bloggers of the Bloggers of Bloggers

Quite often, Ill spend half a post explaining why its taken me so long to write for you guys.
Occasionally I spend even longer. So for this post I have a special treat for you:
Im going to do that for this entire post, YAY, isnt that exciting?

Thought I'd warn you before I jump right into it.
(I'm nice that way, arent I)

Well, this was spurred by a constant stream of questions with little answers refering to the mind of a bloggist. And what makes us.... Tick.

So after a year of indirectly blogging about blogging I'm shaking things up now, and directly blog about blogging!

Now. blogging is an interesting suject for me, beacuse these days Im not really sure if I enjoy it anymore or not. These days its more of an obligation. Even though every time i do it i get theis huge swell of pride.
this is the thing though, when I blog. No one should reall take all of it so seriously because my opinions and views change faster that the wings of a hummingbird.... on speed.

Especially on the nature of tPoP, which is constantly flitting (I like that word, I belive it is a Timotei creation) between wanting to: review and test my journalistic skills, talk about troubling issues in the games industries, talk about the world in general, bitch about life (which i told myself I would never do, and do perspective pieces on life.

Currently, I'm kinda going for all of the above, how am I doing?

Anyway, back to the planned post.

First of all, where did the word "blog come from? what does it mean? is it like, an acronym for.... Blue Lightning Oyster Gang (thats a great name for a band). or maybe Benevolent Long Opinion Garrison?
I would research this but I have little bandwidth so it would take dykeloads of time (thats right, Im using a sexual Orientation Colloquialism as a unit of measurement, wanna fight about it?)

So I guess I'll just continue on this post.

my next area of discussion, (one that I actually have an answer for) Is why bloggers constantly blog about blogging.
In my personal experience this is beause we have so many ideas running through our heads all the time, for posts and setups and stuff jsut you know... revolving around blogs.
But when the push comes to shove (what does that mean?) our trains of thought, or at least mine always end up in the same place: "why do people care about this and why should i make a blog about this shit?"
That leads always to the final post, which ends up being mostly about the blog. I swear that if I could post while walking ome from school (where most of my pondering is done) This blog would be very different. Possibly better, though thats a matter of opinion. I mean? what do you like about this blog? Is it the blogging of blogging, or the actual writings of things that move me... besides blogging.

Well, I had a few other ideas to bring to the table, but I'll bring those up in a later post.
And knowing me, my next post is probably going to be in about... say.... a month?

see you all later.
By the way, havn't done this in a while, but the songs making me move this time around are:

Roller Coaster/Take off your Pants and Jacket/ Blink-182
Amsterdam/Writers Block/ Peter Bjorn & John
Hoppipolla/Takk/ Sigur Ros
Carousel/Cheshire Cat/ Blink-182
Turning on the Screw/ Era Vulgaris/Queens of the Stone Age

Im Lost Without You

Im sorry, I didnt mean what I said... Lets just go back to the way it was, before all the fighting.

Forget the obscurities of blogging and whatnot, lets talk for a while... get re aquainted. I (as the title suggests) have been lost without you guys.

My Topic today is the death of the fighting game. So I'm going to jump straight into it without wasting time on huge introductions....

(told you)
Recently I have been having a jolly good time playing games such as Dead or Alive 4 and Tekken 6. You know, your good old fashioned one on one fighters. Where real skill is tested with the rememberence of long arduous combos and counters. However, these games seem to be of a dying breed, with Street Fighter 4 labled as being the last of the series and the console release of Tekken 6 going completely un-noticed.

As far as I can see this is for one of two reasons:
One, the dying out of the timezone, galaxy world style arcades. And I dont care how often you and your friends use the photo booth, they are dying. And this directly effects fighters because, lets face it. Fighting games are made for arcades. Its just such a good system. Where the winner continues to fight and the loser keeps having to pay.
However in the wierd wacky world of consoles there is no way to make this happen. (like the alliteration? Its my favorite type of 'ation')

The other reason... I have forgotten, this is probably because I started this post a week ago and just revisited it. But thats beside the point.
The matter at hand is that these glorious games of gods (more alliteration, eh?) are going no where. Which is a huge tradgedy!
Is it because all gamers want these days are FPS' or MMO's? because thats all Im seeing.

I dont know about you guysm but the death of the ficghting game is not something I want, sure, they're not the greatest games in the world, buth there is a place for them in MY heart, so when Tekken & is NOT announced, a part of me will die...

Im back now, lets have some fun

Confirming Death Claims

soo...
sorry to break this to you but...
God this is awkward...
Im moving out, I cant take your constant insults and accusing eyes so Im moving somewhere where my talents are appreciated...
http://ennessare.blogspot.com/

I blame you for the death of this blog

Let Me Set Some Things Straight

First of all, let me formally apolagize for the lake of posts over the past month.
Y'all need to understand, a good post, a proper post, like most things in life takes time.
I cant just pop them up overnight. You should see my pile of draft posts. Its gotten to the point where I feel that I owe it to you to come out with an amazing, thoughtfull and all round brilliant post.
But the thing is, thats not always so easy. When it comes to tPoP, I'm a bit of a perfectionist. I dont like to spurt out random posts with no real relevence, and my post always have a point. Thats why I have been in such a dillema over the last month. I simply dont care about anything in particular enough to spend all my time posting. My pwnage has gone undisturbed if you would like.

But here I am now, with a few Ideas to work with. So this is just a post to tell you that I understand that you are all upset about a tPoPless month, but just bear with me, and I will continue to give you the bloggy goodness that you crave.
Dont expect weekly posts, but Ill get around to it dont worry. Over the next month or so I will be polishing and posting the drafts that I have recently written, so it shouldnt be too much of a strain on me.

So yea, just sit tight, and enjoy the stream of posts that'll soon be coming at ya, like a beam, like a ray, like a buzzard!

Shut the Fuck up, I will post when I have the time

nuff said...

I Admit, It's Frustrating Being the Best

Most of you should remember my recent spike of popularity, that is now gone and things have returned mostly to normal.

Since the dying down of the crowds, I've been a little lazy and reluctant to post.

however this ends now as I give a big old STFU!

Seriously, it seems like everyday that i recive requests asking me to "review this" "review that" "mention me" "do a segment on..." "Try to include this". And its really driving me crazy! So, instead of doing the relevenct perspective journalism peice i was planning on doing, this post is going to be a cluster-fuck of all the ridiculous shit that people have asked me to do.

Now, know that I'm not doing this because I want to, but more as a way to spite those that have been asking things of me.

lets begin...

Grand theft Auto IV: The Lost and the Damned has been described as the best downloadable c...

The "Ipod" as we know it is undoubtebly one of the most useful and clever "gadgets" that is av...

The Xbox Live Marketplace is well known for its huge amounts of  useless crap, much like the i...

When i first walked into the Cinema I really did not have high expectations for "Fired Up", this...

Music through the ages has often been the only thing to keep those "unreliable" people functio...

For a more serious style of blog, I recomend that you look for one particular blog, called Repeat...

...

...

OK, so i didnt get THAT many requests.

but surely someone out there can feel my anger and resentment, for having so many people love the blog, and wish for their own say in something that they enjoy reading...

jesus, when I talk about the things I Think about I really come off like a dickhead dont I?

Anyway, enough of that bitch.

One Request that I am happy to make is advertising the band "Comrade Wayne" This is the musical stylings of duo Jack Price and Jack D'arcy.

two Musicians who really have made an art of creating catchy, soulful music and lyrics, while keeping a light hearted, youthful feel to everything they do. I seriously think that they are worth checking out at http://www.myspace.com/littlepipcowbell

Allthough that Comrade Wayne bit was supposed to be a "review" so to speak, reviewing Music isnt really my forte, so i thought i might just do a bit of advertising. Spread the word, you know?

Well, thats tonights thingo, im not really happy with the post i just did to be honest, so Ill make sure to write that Perspective journo Piece next time.

unless something annoys me and I have to vent on this thing...

...again

A Change of Heart

over the last week or so, I have been reading other peoples blogs, getting a feel of the "competition" so to speak.
Mostly I've liked what I have read, allthough its completely changed my perception of what a "Blog" is.
let me explain... Throughout my travels on the inter-highway and on the blogosphere (now theres a metaphor or two) I've realised that People use blogs for so many different reasons.
Whether its to bitch, or to use some "cyberspace" to make a funny or two, or trying to make something deep and philosphical. Its made me stop and think about what I am doing.
Am i bitching?
I do seem to complain alot.
Am I making Funnies?
I've been known to....
Am I being deep, douchy and philosophical?
Once again, I try to touch on some of that stuff occasionly

After thinking about this for a good couple of days, I have come to the (modest) conclusion that my blog does all of that, that I am attempting to do everything.
If you read every post I have made over the last year or so. My tone, subject matter, everything has changed. Its my way of constantly trying to find the winning formula.
Looking at recent viewings and comments, i think i have finally found it with my "Back to my Roots" post.
I look forward to doing more posts in that style in the future.

Here we go again

Ive noticed that over the last few days, there has been a huge spike in hits for this blog....

F*CK YEA!

Im so happy right now, and glad that after 9 months of on and off posting, its finally taken off.
Lets continue this trend, because i swear that im now to thrilled to let it die again... so, do me a solid and tell the world of this blog, so it can get enough hits, be featured and become massivly popular, then ill advertise and make a little money off this shindig...
there you have it, thats my plan. A little far fetched i know, but at this rate, it should work... possibly...
maybe...
probably not...

Along with the increase in hits, there has also been a bit of an extra effort on my part, i have posted 3 times this week, thats got to be some kind of world record.
I mean, im doing this completely pro bono.
Well I better stop it with the self flattery, ill get started now

I really only wrote this short post here to thank all the new viewers for scoping me out... If you enjoy the blogoshpere, check out some of my friends blogs
http://incredious.blogspot.com/
http://thethoofmin.blogspot.com/
http://yawatblog.blogspot.com/

those are all great blogs made by school friends of mine, all with some cool things to say.
anyway, once again, this post was really only to thank you and i guess its a bit of a welcome home gift for my biggest (i hesitate to say) fans, who have been at cadets
Keep reading tPoP and spread the word, but keep it quiet

back to my roots: its thinking time

As I sit here on my kitchen bench, eating my cereal and watching my parents as they do their same old morning routine. I start to notice things about them, and their daily routines and lifestyles.
Currently, they are both sitting at opposite ends of a table, drinking their own completely seperate coffees, reading their own seperate newspapers, and reading their own seperate email inboxes. They occasionally pause to show the other something that they might have read, or something that a friend of theirs has sent them.
I begin to realise that I have many vivid images and memories of them doing exactly this.
this is because they do it every saturday, and have for as long as I can remember. They must enjoy this, because they sub consiously end up doing it, even when we are out of town, or at someone elses house.
While watching them go about this "routine" of theirs, I realise that these two people right in front of me, are completely content at the moment, forgetting all their troubles as they ironically read about the problems of others in an article titled "Rot in Hell, Rudd tells people smugglers"

Allthough i have a lot of quarrels with my parents, one thing I have always admired is their sence of contentness for their dreary middle class lives.
This is where the scene I have painted has some relevence in my subject matter, the video games industry.
This is an Industry that is always pushing for greater things,for great technological achievements. But by doing this, as i have come to realise, they are failing to acomplish what they first set out to do, to entertain.
As games get more and more mainstream and the "quality" apparently goes up, all money is spent on marketing, and updating hardware. And all those who (in the words of Jarett Cale) "Play Games for Game-play" are left with a below adverage piece of dribble that happens to look shiny and polished.
This is all I have time for, so I wont elaborate too much, but think about the kind of games that would be released these days if the games industry were more like my parents, content with what they have.
Would our games stay as good as the ones released in the great N64 days, or would games just be the dribble we have today... without the polishing?

im a quitter, im a blogger, im not a real jogger

HA, here I am again, with a bang... again. (of course refering to my hilarious title)



Today Im feeling really alone because everyone I know is at a freaking cadet camp... even the girls! (i know right?)

so Im doing what every reasonable person does at a time of desperation when they just need to feel loved... HITTIN THE INTERNET!



I Find myself in this pickle because I'm a quitter, i quit cadets so now Im stuck at home, it may seem like maybe I should have continued cadets from this last statement but you have to realise.... I'm very lazy

This is actually starting to affect (effect? whats the difference?) me in a very detrimental fashion.

I'm finding that I no longer have the energy to do alot of the things i used to, for example, i haven't read in ages! Whereas i used to read like a book a day. All that cod4 has finally done it, I have lost my attention span. Im pretty sure thats a bad thing, yet i dont really care as much as you think i might. Does this mean that I am so lazy, that i no longer care that I am lazy, i sure hope so, because caring would be a major buzz kill.

thats actually the same reason why i dont post, my laziness.
However i have recently had the ephifany that it truly is quality over quantity, and that I really dont have to push for a deadline or anything like that... however i dont really have the quality either.
So pretty much my 1, no wait... 2 fans are screwed

just a bit of a bitch

STEAK NI-EET (its a greeting, spread it)

After a 3 week drought im back again. And I was all worked up to talk to you guys about Valve, and how upset I am at their attitude towards the console market, but my mother just told me "When I was your age, I was cooking dinner for my parents"
This got me VERY upset...
So I started thinking, Things have changed, things are changing, and the amount of work that is done by the adverage (white) person has, and is decreasing rapidly. But is this a good thing or a bad thing? this is how i look at it:
Our Parents Worked through their childhood, supposedly enjoyed themselves. However, us Gen Ysies do jack all, partake in alot of leasurely activities and we bitch... All the time. Our Parents have good jobs and are hard workers, they are supposedly happy. We are (or at least I am)constantly being harrased to do small loads of school work. This is my question to you, if a childhood is training for later life. Are we having a better childhood than our parents?
Now, I know I may not be making sense, this actually does sound ok in my head
Well, what really started this train of thought was when my mother said that to me, and I thought if things never changed, there would be no womens rights, she would be a stay-at-home mom, not a dentist, and she wouldnt be asking me to pack the dishwasher because she would have already done it while I was at school....
Wow, I just realised... I am so lazy, that I appose Womens rights


Im a terrible person

Lets face it. I'm not great with titles

Well hey there chiiiiiildren!

Its time for your old friend Sean to hit you with some solid knowledge.
About 6 months ago, its spoke to you cats about yours truly maybe writing some game reviews on this site in my spare time.
Well at the moment, my time is pretty spare so i decided to stay true to my promise and give you a view from the top of the leaderboards, down at the games that made me great. Dont worry, im just kidding, I can possibly be that arrogant... Can I?
Those of you who know me best know that I aspire to be a games journo. Now this is a dream I've had for some time, and it makes me sick, when people assume I only want to do this so i can play games. To those sorry excuses for human beings, you could not be further from the truth!
This is something that I want to do because what journalists do, essentially is relay their opinions, and since that is something I love doing, and most of my opinions are about the games of video, this is an obvious carrer path for me.. right?
Well, Its time for me to start with the games... this week, fallout 3!

What First drew me towards Fallout 3 was the small logo on the bottom right hand side of the case that reads "Bethesda Studios"
This of course, made me froth at the mouth and I instantly coughed up the nessesary $100 and bought the bad boy. allright, Im not going to say that's the only reason I bought it. The numerous "Game of the Year" awards helped a little. But lets not dwell on that, the important part was that it was made by the creators of Oblivion, and trying a gamemade by those masterminds was definately worth $100, to me anyway...
once I Put the game in my Xbox, I was gobsmacked as my newly created character was litereally shot out of a uterus! Not even kidding! what an amazing way to start a game, I was almost ready to eject the game, put it on my wall and frame it for the ages.
but no... I had to close my gaping mouth and keep playing, what followed were your standard character creation tools(brilliantly presented of course), name selector, and all that stuff.
Once that had finished, the game shot forward in time a few years and learning to move in the game was like taking your first steps IRL.... These people are geniuses!
Enough about the start of the game, lets talk aboot the game play, i know as a review, i should be trying my hardest to use lots of big words and shooting off long sentences that can be summed up in one word, but I'm going to skip the middle man and just sum it up in one word:

FUCKING AWESOME (thats one word and anyone who disagrees is the anti-christ)

It could be my laziness and that could have something to do with the fact that I'm not getting paid for this. But writing alot about it just seems unnecesary, just take my (one) word for it and accept that even though the V.A.T.S body part targeting system is different to what you are used to... It has never ceased to bow my mind, and I'm sure it will blow your mind also.

The world that Bethesda has created is so brilliant, and so real, it is impossible to not get immersed in the post apocalyptic world that has been made with such care and detail that it is honestly, very difficult to find a flaw in. (trust me, I tried)
The People have realistic reactions, the enemies have perfect levels of difficulty, the quests have been consruced so that the player always cares about the story...
No matter what you want in a game, action, story, time waster, amazing graphics, total immersion, whatever... Fallout 3 has you covered, a must buy for anybody... anywhere.


Well, there you have it, the first proper tPoP (the pains of pwnage, also makes a great acronym, whod a thunk it?) Review, hope you enjoy, and depending on the feedback, expect to see more of them, maybe next time I wont do a game I adore.

As for music time, I havent been really listening to much lately, so really just refer to the last 2. I wll say one thing however, If your over 18 and reading this + live in sydney, go to V fest.. you've got The Killers, The Kaiser Chiefs, whats not to love. I only say this because I cant go... do it for me =(

PS. My one beef with fallout 3, why cant i play after the credits? I had to start a new game... sucks

Have a good one, Strykun, out

I promise that there will be no cheese mentioned in this post... maybe

Its crazy happy super blog time...

sorry bout the few day delay (totally rhimes, awesome!)

I got busy and i just.... Wait a minute, I wasn't busy, just lazy. I should totally stop saying that I'll post the next day, i really should do this as more of a weekly thing... so I will.

I guess the reason I dont post so often is because everytime i think of something to write here, i always forget it when push comes to shove and i have to write it down. Damn my bad memory!



any way, when i lft you I was talking amoot my yr 6 speech right, k.

So its only natural that my train of thought leads straight to..... GEARS OF WAR!!!

naa just kidding, though if you want me to talk about gears, ill be happy to oblige.



So, the rant continues tonight (well, its morning now) with the second installment, enjoy...

After spending a fair amount of my holidays playing Fallout 3, I think I'm finally understanding this "gaming addiction" thing. For a while there, I had reached a point where I practically lived inside of that game, all i thought about was fallout, and by the end of the game, I was fairly sure I would excell in a nuclear fallout.... maybe.

This is almost as bad a my Oblivion addiction, Those Bethesda guys really know how to make an addictive RPG.

NOw this is a short post, and unfortunately, most of my newer posts will be... hey, im not that interesting.

MUSIC TIME!

Today ill be listening to:

Never Miss A beat/ The Kaiser Chiefs

I Cant Stay/ The Killers

Uhn Tiss/ The Bloodhound Gang

Tring to Find a Balance/ Atmosphere

The Album: Scenes of a Memory/ Dream Theater

what a great post, ill see you next week and..... NACHO CHEESE (im sorry, i cant help myself)

Here I am, standing beside myself.... with laughter

Heres a great way to start again...

What do you call cheese thats not yours?... NACHO CHEESE!



HA HA HA

THATS SO F*KING FUNNY

IM LAUGHING SO HARD!

NO JOKE, THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY WEEK!

OMG I SAID "NO JOKE"

I AM IN F*CKING STITCHES RIGHT NOW



and enough about that.

Not being at school at the moment, im finding it more and more difficult to rant, the opportunities just aren't coming up.

So i think to myself "how do people usualy write down a whole bunch of stuff and post it on the interwebs?" After a long thinking process and a couple of cokes, I find myself here, back were I Was 6 months ago.

Not only am I back to my blogging roots, but i take comfort in the fact that i came back with a bang, a f*cking HILARIOUS bang! Seriously, i consider myself a better person now that I have heard, and retold that nacho cheese joke.

Well back to the matter at hand: The time has come for me to rant, and none of this piss weak ranting you find on OTHER blogs. The rants that I will give to you will be like a waterfall of whinging on you, ill dump the niagra falls of bitchiness all over your asses.

Well, enough of the talking about the talking. I think it is finally time for the real talking to begin. Good luck in there, it could get rough.



For those of you who were attending Arden Anglican School(primary or secondary)might remember how a boy spoke of how much he loathed the nerd population in his school. the speech was great, it even won a public speaking award or two. after he gave this speech on how he hated nerds, he rather hipocritically went home to play Star Wars battlefront on his Playstation.

To cut a long story short, the Boy that vowed to never become a nerd and insulted those that were now spends his days playing Halo and writing blogs... can you guess who it was

IT WAS ME! (Wooooooooooo)

Its funny how things change over time, yet not at all, I'm the same person I was 4 years ago, yet Im apparently different in some way, im classified differently by peers, i feel less confident and I spend all night on forums, somthing happened and apparently im different... eh, I dont F*king know

Whats next on the agenda, oh yea, heres an idea i had, at the end of each post ill tell you what music im listening to right now.

This night im listening to:
Losing Touch, day & age, The Killers
Staring at the Sun, Desperate Youth, TV on the Radio
I go Hard, I go Home, The Presets
Every Day I love You Less and Less, Employment, Kaiser Chiefs
Accident & Emergency, The Magic Position, Patrick Wolf
Kid A, Kid A, Radiohead

Well, there you have it, TPoP is back in buisness and I hope you enjoy me continue the rant tomorrow
Good night, and Good Luck